kicked my butt today in step aerobics… I sweated sooo hard!  Someone suggested switching my exercise because I am at a stand-still… but nothing makes me sweat as hard or go as long as step… I tried kick boxing and it just seemed too mellow…. there aren’t too many options as far as classes at my gym… classes push me a LOT harder than I push myself….

The “I LOVE ME” List

This was hard….

1. What do you absolutely love about your body? LOVE? Honestly, nothing. I suppose I like my legs because they have shape.  Can I say my hair? I do like my hair…. I guess I’d have to say my womanly figure. What I mean by that is that I do have an hour-glass shaped body (big chest) that does look nice when you can see the hour-glass (: That’s the goal right?? That you will be able to see my hour-glass one of these days!?! (: ( I don’t love my big chest, but I guess I love that my husband loves it (TMI - I know!))

2. When did you surprise yourself with your physical strength? Boot camp. I did an 8 week woman’s boot camp at my gym the months before I got married. The first week it was every day at 5am for an hour and a half. After the first day I could barely walk… and each day didn’t see much improvement (: It WAS however, the first time I ever ran 5 miles in my life… let alone 5 days in a row! (: After the first week it was only MWF, still and hour and a half…. but I saw huge changes in my body during those 8 weeks! I went down 1 whole wedding dress size, and truly felt amazing at my wedding

3. When were you braver than you ever thought you could be? I guess when I went through my miscarriage last year. It was a fear I had long before I was ever married or pregnant.. and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone thru. I learned a lot about reaching out to people as they grieve, and I also drew closer to God… I am grateful for those 2 things.

4. When did your self-control blow you away? Hmm… honestly, kinda cheesy but I think the day Allison and I baked all day and did soooo well! We didn’t graze or eat out of control at all (too bad it didn’t last the next day!) I’m sure there’s a deeper answer than this… it was just all I could think of at the moment!

5. What is your proudest moment ever? The day my daughter was born. What joy!

6. When was the last time you felt absolutely beautiful? absolutely beautiful??? like amazing?? I guess my wedding day. I’ve felt pretty and nice and all dolled up for various occasions, but nothing like my wedding…

7. Why do you deserve to meet your goals? For me: to feel good about myself. Confident and secure. For my dh: to have a sexy wife… not a mom that lets herself go and forgets that he is the most important person in my life! For my dd. and for my future children: I have enough problems with my joints (knees and wrists)… I don’t need extra weight to add to that. I want to be able to live long and enjoy my grandchildren someday… and I want to be a mom that can chase my kid on the playground, get down on the ground and wrestle, and just be a healthy example to me kids as well.

Ok… if you’ve read my list… it’s your turn!!! DO IT, YOU HAVE BEEN TAGGED!!!

I’m frustrated with the road block I seem to have reached.  I am not eating great… and my mind-set is just blah.  I seem to try each day… but obviously not hard enough.  I have been hovering around 153 for close to 2 months.  I know with Thanksgiving and then Christmas, it truly was about just getting by… maintaining.  But now?? Now I just don’t know what the deal is.  I wouldn’t say I’ve lost my motivation.  I’m still here.  Blogging almost daily.  I work out 5/7 days per week… It’s just that I seem to have lost some of my discipline. I think I may have burnt out slightly.  Today I ate big salad for the first time in (what seems like) a long time… it was torture.  I had to force myself to get out the lettuce, put it together, and eat it… all the while my brain was telling me I didn’t want it.. even when I was eating it I didn’t really enjoy it… it just tasted ug. to me.  I was on a roll in the past months of getting my fruit in by doing a apple, banana, manderine, splenda fruit salad.. and ever since manderines have kinda gone out of season, I haven’t been doing that either

What’s the deal???

Here’s my food today.  Not really proud of it.  I seem to start well… just not ending the greatest…

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Goal (Week Jan19  - 26  )				Sat	Sun	Mon	Tues	Wed	Thurs	Fri
Cardio totaling 3 hours each week					60 min		60 min
50 crunches (daily)					x		x
50 obliques (daily)					x		x
other exercise:
Group Power 1+ time/week
if daily goals accomplished							:-)