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nice to be back

clash — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 23:43:23 +0000

gosh it is so nice to be back. My mind has been all over the place, but now I am back. I was allowing life to distract me from what is most important…my well being. I look forward to reading the blogs and being inspired…as always.

God help me…am I doomed to me fat?

clash — Fri, 01 Feb 2008 15:18:44 +0000

this is a dup of my board posting

I am lost and can’t seem to get it together. I am so sad. I had been doing well…posting here…attending my meetings and loosing. THEN the HOLIDAYS came…my goal was to maintain…which i did, but now it has been ages since i have been to a meeting( and it is fed 1st). I have no scale at home so I have no idea how much weight I have gained back….I know I have not gained it all back b/c my cloths tell me so. Still I cant seem to get it together. I have a million reasons why I should be committed to this program. 1 I can get off my blood pressure med, i an hit goal by my b-day in june…I have 40lbs to go and that can be done by june, i just have so much going on in life and I am using that to excuse my bad eating habits and lack of exercise. I really do not know what I am going to do…where can I get the spirit from. I feel like if I don’t get it together and soon…I am on my way to being morbidly obese. I think I have that mind set. it scares me…I thank God I am tall…at 209 (last weigh in weight) I am in a size 16, but it BLOWS my mind I am a size 16…it BLOWS my mind…and it will only get worst…so, what am I to do…it it no longer good enough to validate my large size by noting someone bigger than me and telling myself at least that is not you…b/c one day soon…it may be. HELP

Oh my gosh…I almost forgot Orville Redenbacher

clash — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 17:53:21 +0000

I am excited to try the different flavors of the popcorn (Simply Salted, Buttery Garlic and Buttery Salt & Cracked Pepper)….Im pretty sure the one i will enjoy the most will be Garlic.

more crowded than a Hannah Montana concert

clash — Mon, 07 Jan 2008 21:50:58 +0000

i am heading off to the 1st ww meeting that my group has had since the week before x-mas…i know it is going to be packed, but i am hoping the new commer (word?) energy will be just what I need…stay tuned

feeling good

clash — Thu, 29 Nov 2007 12:42:00 +0000

I am feeling so good today b/c I am prepared and in the zone(i think). My breakfast and lunch healthy ww compliant and here at work with me.

6 weeks and up 1.4

clash — Tue, 27 Nov 2007 12:57:10 +0000

Fallen off for a MONTH

clash — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 02:52:52 +0000

I am so afraid to go for my weigh in. I am scared to see the number… to have an idea how much damage I have done in 6 weeks. I could write all night for regarding what I have been through this month. All of it for me has come down to I have fallen, but I am getting up slowly. 1st step the market tomorrow. Next big step meeting on monday. I have not been to a meeting since sept. Not b/c I wanted to miss it, but business travel and some life type things got in the way, but wont these things always get in the way? so what is a girl like me to do? FOCUS…yes FOCUS, prepare and Focus…Eyes on the prize. I can make goal by my birthday in June!

falling and failing

clash — Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:30:15 +0000

Gosh, I am so far off plan I can barely see my way back. I am so stressed right now. I know I have to reconnect with the community, weightwatchers.com and my meetings. I have be on buss travel which is bad enough, but not impossible i need to stop taking the easy way out. I also and sooo stressed. I have two rentals and no rentors…need I say more, but what i realize is food is not going to lessen the travel and food is not going to help me get rentors…Food is fuel…right? I mean that is the purpose right and if it taste good BONUS…right? not entertainment. UGH I have got to get it together. I dont want to give back the 19lbs that I have lost. I have 43 more to go.

CLASS OF 87′ REUNION was a blast

clash — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 00:20:51 +0000

I had such a good time at my class reunion (that is me in the silver). I was not at my under 200lb goal, but so what. I am still down 19lbs and so proud…next goal 11/17…Girls w/e in Atlantic City (my friend’s b-day).

I have been missing something that I now know I MUST have

clash — Thu, 20 Sep 2007 01:21:53 +0000

I need to focus on the short term goal(s). I have been disconnected and not 100% on plan since…well, ever! But especially since labor day. I think i have been able to loose the 19 lbs I have w/o exercise and 100% committed b/c my body was never really suppose to be that big, so I needed some eating control and 1/3 of my ultimate goal has been hit. My fear is that I will become the WW member that I read about. The typical WW member (according to this article) looses 11 lbs. Well, I’ve never been typical, but I must admit I was happy for the confirmation when I hit 15lbs. BUT! if i don’t get into the 100% commitment zone and get my body moving…I don’t believe the scale will budge again. There is zero reason not to hit goal by x-mas…So, here is my ah ha moment…I really need small goals…and here they are 3lbs a week, but will be happy with 2. that is 18 lbs in 9 weeks or best case 27lbs…(9 weeks from today is nov 21st.) If I do the 3lbs I am 1 lb short of life time member goal. I can do this…I am not typical and I don’t believe my fellow bloggers are typical either.

YEA!!! down 1.4

clash — Tue, 11 Sep 2007 00:57:54 +0000

I tick, tick , tick towards my 10% goal. I am 3 lbs away. Good Grief I can’t wait to be under 200lbs. Really with all the eating I have done. I am am thrilled I lost. I was counting on a 4-7lb gain

oh my i am out of control

clash — Thu, 06 Sep 2007 00:33:37 +0000

ugh i realize i cant just blog when things are good. it is important to feel connected even when I am out of control. I say out of control, but not really. I am afraid of my weigh in, b/c I have not been good, but what is done is done. I have some many other things on my mind. My job is boring, but it more that pays the bills. I am a slave to the money…

I can’t wait to go back to work

clash — Tue, 04 Sep 2007 23:42:07 +0000

I need the schedule so I can get back on plan. this weekend I was a eating like a mad women. The poor cat had to keep moving so that I would not eat her.

BUT! Today I started working out like I planned. 60 mins on the treadmill, 60 belly dancing and 25 mins walk back and forth to the metro. I am always fearful that the working out will effect my eating and I am concerned.

How doyou spell FREAK OUT????

clash — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 14:53:19 +0000

My WW food scale broke this morning. i had to run out an get one from bed bath and beyond ($33.00) …I was so upset i cried…This is the 2^nd WW scale I’ve owned ($40.00). I am very disappointed. The 1^st one I bought from my meeting when I got home…it would not turn on. I retuned it to the meeting the next week and they allowed me to swap. The 2^nd scale has work great (2.5 months) until this morning. I tried to reach WW on the website, but you can only e-mail. I tried the number on the user guide. It is Conair and I was on hold w/o a person coming on line for 8 mins! My reg meetings are on Monday canceled next week b/c of the holiday, so I’ll have to wait two weeks to have this problem address. I am not sure what they’ll do for me. I really just want to return it. I no longer have the box or the receipt all I have in my corner is that they wrote in my folder that I had bought the scale. The only thing that made me feel good about this whole thing is that I got so upset…which means to me…I really do care about this plan and eating right.

Sea Food Tacos…so good

clash — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 01:28:11 +0000

I made seafood tacos and they were super yummy

two onions (3 pts)

3 cups of mushroom (.5 cups)

4 ears of corn (6 points)

2 green peppers (.5)

8 oz salmon (8pts)

shrimp (1 cups 3 pts)

catfish (4 oz 4 pts)

cilantro (0 pts)

tomatoes (2 medium .5 pts)

avocado (1oz 1pt)

spread 1/4 fat free sour cream mixed with 1/2 a packet of low sodium Taco seasoning

Pam spray and cook chopped onion, green pepper, mushrooms and corn (I had already cooked the corn in a pit of boiling water)…Sprinkle no sodium seasoning that you enjoy.

bake salmon with no sodium marinade

stove top cocked the cat fish (it was what was on sale) and shrimp with more sodium free spices until done

on wheat tortilla spread table spoon of the taco FF sour cream combo

place fish on the tortilla

spoon the chopped tomatoes, cilantro,with the pepper, onion, mushroom and corn mixture on to the tortilla, add an ounce of avocado and two table spoons of salsa.

wrap it up and it is so good.

the points are up to you based on how much of the ingredients you use

up .4 …not too bad

clash — Tue, 28 Aug 2007 01:22:41 +0000

Oh boy for all the damage I have done over the w/e up .4 is not bad. My leader made a good point. It is all relative. She asked “what did you consider bad b/4 the plan?”. She is right. even being “bad this w/e comes no where close to me being bad in the past. I am proud to have owned it…and I am right back in line. No weigh in next Monday b/c of the holiday…my hope to be down 5lbs by then

oh boy have i been bad in the last 24 hours

clash — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 22:05:34 +0000

how much weight can one person gain in two day? The thing is it does not matter. I am going in for my weigh in tomorrow. I am going to own my gain. I have 5 week…hopefully I will be down 10 lbs before my reunion. I know part of the prob is that I am starting to see the results. My tummy is flat again. I look good in a tank top… My jeans although still a size 16 look and feel good some are not too big. I think i am in between a 14 and a 16…Ah yes…I remember this from the way up.

It is working…Im not looking at food the same way

clash — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 13:57:41 +0000

I had a big convo with my b-friend yesterday…It went well…and then we went to dinner to a hibachi place. I like seeing the food being made, but it sadden me to see how much butter was used. I gave 75% of my food to the b-friend and I ate until i was no longer hungry..I had to rest pack and sent the rest home with him. 4 months ago I would not have noticed the butter and trust and believe me when I say I would have stuffed all I could down and then I would have taken the rest home and eaten it that very night!

WW is life is changing and that is wonderful!

looming break-up + no points being eaten= WW disaster! Help

clash — Thu, 23 Aug 2007 17:29:41 +0000

anticipating a problem. My b-friend and I have been fighting like cats and dogs and we are going to have a talk this w/e. So, here is the prob. when I am upset (which I am) i don’t eat…I can’t eat…It so hard. Last night I struggled to get my food down…I started eating several items and they all landed in the trash. If we decide to go our own way…there is going to be more of this for a while (based on history…if you think I am kidding check this out. I lost 30lbs in 30 days after me and my ex ended out 5 year relationship b/c of his cheating…I just stopped eating) and i know this is not healthy, but i can’t help it. . I don’t want my break up blues ruin my plan by under eating…i need high point healthy meals so I can get most of it down. Thoughts anyone?

Up 1.7

clash — Thu, 23 Aug 2007 17:01:09 +0000

Oh Lawd, I missed my reg Monday weigh in, so i went to a meeting near my job today. I say “oh lawd”, but really I am not upset. I have 4 days until my reg weigh in …I am thinking at worst I will break even. Not to mention…I did not have my weigh in outfit on. YEAH THATS RIGHT I have a lucky weigh in outfit…what or it?

Good Grief I wear the same sweats and tank every week. I have alerted the people in my meeting …I am not so much a fashion don’t as I am superstitious. I was right to be superstitious…look what happened i got weigh in without wear my lucky outfit and BAM! I registered my 1st gain ever….LOL

The good the bad and the PIZZA

clash — Sun, 19 Aug 2007 21:18:53 +0000

OK in order…the good…I took a hour long bike ride today that seemed like 5 hours. My legs don’t even hurt(yet)…I guess, I really don’t know b/c I can’t feel them. Oh my goodness. My b-friend and I rode with another couple (that ride all the time). It was way to hard for me for my 1st ride. you ever work out so hard it is a turn off?..well this is such a situation, but I know i have to push past the thought. It it time to add work out to my plan. So, I will be taking rides on my own to build up.

ok the bad, two nights of sushi and a b-day dinner for the b-friend between thursday and sat. The sushi wasn’t that bad.

now the PIZZA!Ugh this weekend has been the worst. We got back from the bike ride and the b-Friend wanted pizza. I feel bad saying no to him, why should he do with out b/c ( I was getting ready to type “b/c I am on a diet”, but it just hit me …I am not on a diet.) I am changing the way I eat it is a lifestyle change. Here is the biggest challenge…he may be moving in with me for a short time….too long to get into, but what I know is I better get some strength, b/c I set the stage…he’ll eat what I cook and when he suggests getting something to eat that is not ~~plan friendly~~ lifestyle friendly…I will have to give me my cookie cutter answer ” if you want to get it…you can”…he always then asks “you are not going to have any” and when i say “no”…he is fine with it…95% of the time he eats what I eat. The other 5% he gets food just for him…ZERO pressure! So, I have to be strong enough to give the answer that works all the time.

I am going to my meeting tomorrow, but i will not be weighing in.

a picture may be worth a 1000 words, but a bad one is worth a MILLION

clash — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 13:42:55 +0000

So, last night I decided to post pictures of myself. It is really having an adverse effect on me. I feel sad and depressed…I guess I should be glad that I did not take the photos 18 lbs ago. I can’t believe how big I am. I mean there was no denying it once it was in my face. I am pressing on b/c I can continue to work and go down or I will stay where I am in the body I can’t stand to look at. I wish I had never taken the pictures. I was actually feeling good…feel lighter…happy and then I took the photo bam! Fat body in my face

Another weigh in…down 6.8 pounds

clash — Tue, 14 Aug 2007 00:45:22 +0000

Well, I have lost a total of 18.4 lbs …I am so happy …I am hoping that next week I will hit my 10% goal, but I am 4lbs from that goal. This really amazing to me. I can do this plan and it works!!! It is painless 95% of the time and I am thrilled! It is what I needed

Split Pea soup

clash — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 17:07:04 +0000

2 16 0z bags of split peas 14

2 32oz boxes of Kitchen Basics Chicken stock 3

64 oz of water 0

2 onions sliced 0

2 cups of carrots 0

2 bay leaves 0

Top of one celery stalk 0

5 garlic cloves 0

2 smoked turkey sausages ( used oscar mayer) 2/3 less fat 16

Wash and soak peas for 2 hrs or overnight

Cook all ingredients (except split peas) in a pot. Bring to a hard boil and then simmer for 30-40 mins

Add peas (if soak for an hour cook for 2 hours) if soaked over night cook for 60 mins.

33 pts for whole pot. there was 23 servings (8oz per serving) 1.4 points per cup

Salmon on my mind and in my Belly!

clash — Fri, 10 Aug 2007 00:04:10 +0000

So, good. I made salmon in the oven with a rub. I ate a 7 ounce piece of salmon. I am adding a point for the rub, I had a cup of fresh string beans (0 points) . I had a cup of spring squash with onions (0 points) . 2pts ( I have a WW food scale) of little red potatoes bake in a tablespoon of olive oil ( the table spoon of oil was used to make at least 6 servings, but I count a point per serving for the oil anyway). It was so good served on a smaller plate. I made Sunny a plate as well…yummy and I still have 7.5 pts to go tonight. Here are pics of my dinner…Roni you deserve an award for your photo journalism…My pics not so good, but hopeful you get the gist