raised on pizza / fuel the fire

It’s so funny, people told me I looked great at the wedding, and I just saw pictures today… gross.  I look gross.  I don’t look like how I picture healthy-me looking.  I’m 180.  I have a gym-date tonight.  I need to start saving for the wedding in six months I’m planning on dialing it back financially, and the gym is already paid for, so I’m deciding that that’s my new entertainment.  Besides, I don’t have cable so I can get my CNN/election coverage fix.

I’m having issues waking up in my new place, I just don’t get any morning sun.  So bought a light timer for like $3.  I almost — almost – made it out of bed at 6:30am to go for a jog.  I really want to get back into jogging 2x a day like I did in the north end.  low-impact, nothing crazy, just moving.  So waking up is key.  Routine is key.

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Weighed myself this morning at 171.2, down from 181.2 two weeks ago.  I know losing 5lbs/wk is bad, but I really feel like this was “new weight”– it went on just as fast.  I’m not doing anything severe, just staying in points and going to the gym.  And drinking tons of water!  Those mix-ins things are really working for me.

I’d brought my sneakers to New Orleans and worked out for not even 20 minutes - it was so muggy and nasty.  This weekend I’m going white water rafting, followed by a super random week off to relax in the sunshine.  The hotel has a fitness center with AC, so the sneaks are coming with me yet again — but like I said in my ww meeting yesterday, I feel like a week without working out would actually feel really gross.

Note to self: incorporate more fun stuff on the swiss balls.  (that’s what she said.)

I’m down two pounds from my recent setback just by not eating all that crap.  Went to the gym last night.  Came home and relaxed minus any booze.

I persuaded my manager-type with this article to give me a budget of $15/week to buy fresh fruit for the office (8 people).  Score!

:/ Feels super crappy. Bought some water mixins*, ate the other half of yesterday’s salad as consolation. Obviously it’s time for change. What led up to this set back from my food log:
- movie popcorn
- “medium” cherry coke
- peanut m&ms for breakfast
- not drinking enough water
- not going to the gym
- having those small bags of mini chips ahoy in the house.. and eating four bags in one sitting
- the air alone in starbucks has to be like an entire point

* super sour! zero points! love ‘em!

I’m thinking of buying this. Today. I just signed up for my company’s Corporate Challenge (June 26) so have to make sure I’m up to snuff.

Some chick warned me yesterday to not run because it would make my face saggy. She was like “Don’t you see all those 60-year-old runners with saggy faces?” and I was thinking “Um.. you mean the really fit, healthy ones who aren’t suffering from heart disease?”

Also I’ve clearly been ignoring the co-worker advice on the right. It’s terrific advice, and I lost 5lbs in a week once following it.

- mixed greens
- mushrooms
- corn
- red peppers
- green peppers
- mushrooms
- broccoli
- asked for the crispy noodles on the side in a separate container so i can save half for tomorrow and still have super crispy noodles. leave ‘em in the fridge overnight and they get soggy - very unappetizing.

i forgot!  last night’s points debacle (PD) was related to meeting my friend to celebrate the booking of a hall for her destination wedding — and she asked me to be one of her bridesmaids!  i’m just so excited and happy for her, but also: a) i’m going to be a BRIDESMAID and b) on a BEACH in PUERTO RICO.  both are like the supreme motivators for trimming it up.

i’m two 10%s away.  right now i’m aiming for 153, my new 10% since i started going to meetings — and it’s also my healthy BMI target.

yesterday started off pretty well: a banana, a multivitamin — by 11 i was really hungry so had a whole wheat bagel with non-fat cream cheese. 100-calorie kettle corn at 4:30, then met a friend after work.

dun-dun-dunnnnn…

four glasses of wine, a tiny cheeseburger and some fries later, i am officially off plan. i have to remember to graze and not let myself get to that super hungry stage, cuz then i just eat whatever the hellz i want.

Remember when I wrote a SWL (Strongly Worded Letter) to CPK because they outright refused to provide nutritional information (even tho Starbucks and MacDonalds do..)? They then suggested “a salad without dressing or a pizza without cheese (?)” as their “healthy options” — and I never went back. HA! Take that, The Man of pizza joints.

Uno’s has gone the other route, as written up in yesterday’s Globe. Kudos to Uno’s, I hope more restaurants follow suit.

- mixed greens
- mushrooms
- corn
- green peppers
- red peppers
- chow mein noodles
- extra mushrooms
- balsamic vinegrette

Why is it I’ll fall off from drinking water until a doctor/rolfer/nutritionist just lets it slip that drinking water is like The Most Crucial healthy thing? And then a ww meeting reinforces it , of course. Derr.

Things that help me drink water:
- black tea
- bendy straws
- my adorable new spigot thing from c&b
- cukes
- lemons
- it getting warmer
- working out
- making out
- water bottles
- a friend who works for smartwater

- falling asleep with the tv on (sleep is crucial)
- taking the elevator
- not planning out meals
- hating the mob scene grocery store

On Mother’s Day:

“I mean, come on! I pushed a HUMAN BEING out of me!!!”
“How many activity points is that?”

Um, hilarious. I heart Sandy, Monday lunch’s leader. I am under the weather with an incoming cold, it’s raining, I gained like 3 pounds overnight and there she is, this little firebolt of energy just waiting to lift my spirits. She celebrates her 20 years of keeping off 65lbs this week! Also, she seems a little like she could kick my ass if I don’t straighten up and fly right. Cool.

I signed up for monthly pass and put all the meetings near work on my gcal. That’s my new lunch date. I’m unmotivated. Something’s gotta give.

I started interval running 30 minutes a night the past few nights and my legs kill. I took the big blue exercise ball out of the hall closet and put it in my room so it’s just there whenever I have the lovely whim to workout. And finally, I started Rolfing sessions to just do one last thing to figure out my foot numbness. It’s making me crazy. After session one I can feel my body readjusting and my brain processing what the hell just happened to me.

Representing your company at your ex’s company’s benefit fair this Friday! Woohoooo!!

Surely, I jest. Honestly I’m over it and it ain’t no thang, but still a girl wants to look good. (Said the girl wearing a crispy seaweed facial mask.) Still, I’m curious how many people can relate. Is everyone just shy? busy? Maybe I’m just not that interesting. I’ll try to spice it up with more ex-talk and/or I’ll start dating.

Speaking of bringing new men into my life, I think I’ve found a chiropractor. Score! Of course, when I mentioned this to my boss, he mentioned running the Chicago marathon together. Big leap there, buddy. But I’m game.

Here’s a visual depicting exactly the vertebrae that makes my foot go numb when I run. Praise western medicine for being too money grubbing to recommend an adjustment rather than a year’s worth of fruitless tests. I’m not bitter, just anxious. And on top of anxious, apparently running a marathon with the man who controls my salary.

Went to the gym last night, walked a half hour for lunch today to get my 0-point sub… feeling good! I have to remind myself of that week I went to the gym every day and lost 5 pounds by the next weigh-in.  I’m all about slow and steady, but if it’s ready to come off faster honestly I ain’t gonna fight it. F’realz.

I’ve been getting up earlier, eating breakfast, bought a stack of bananas for my desk, and gave a presentation to about 50 people today without breaking a sweat.

Here’s a nice article about how unbalanced and crazed we all are, and why that makes us awesome. Just for kicks.

- salad
- drink (1)
- ten minute coughing fit preventing me from eating bread

UPDATE:  At today’s meeting (5/2) I learned that this only accounts for the FILLER of the sandwich, not the bread — which is 4 points.  How freakin obnoxious is that!?  But silly me for falling for it.