My Best Life Now

I’ll probably be a bit MIA this weekend as the family starts flying in today… I have been a nervous wreck. So many emotions. Some of you that have been reading my blog for a while might remember the situation with my mom and I about my inter-racial relationship. BLOT: She doesn’t approve of it and I hate that she ignores that that part of my life doesn’t exist. I am putting the possibility out there that I will be true to myself and not let it get to me if she makes comments.

Enough of that. I’ve had my crying episodes in anticipation of the fun but emotionally-filled weekend. I need to just look forward and enjoy the moment. My horoscope today was quite timely –> Your emotional state could stand a little boost, but you’re not so bad off that you can’t raise a smile for friends or family. It’s a good time to chill out with them and try to just enjoy the peace.

Here is a little on how my week has gone in terms of food since my last post.

Tuesday - this was a very busy day at work. Why is it always that the things are working fine and it looks like leaving on your vacation is not going to be so bad but then the day before, it all gets crazy?? I did okay eating as I had packed my lunch. In the evening I cooked some pork chops sauteed with onions and tomatoes and had it with a side of corn. I knew I couldn’t afford to have rice so I let the BF have the leftover rice and I went with a lower point option–corn.

Wednesday was my day off!! I walked 11,651 steps with running errands and cleaning house. I was beat by the end of the day but my house is clean and ready for the visitors. I didn’t track my points but I know I was reasonable until at the end of the day I had 2 servings of cookies. I have to be careful because PMS is around the corner…it may have started to creep in with the hunger I had during the day.

Today I had a spinach omelete/cheese for breakfast and I just had a 1/2 turkey sandwich and some platain chips as a snack since I will be taking Mom and her friend to lunch in a couple of hours.

I haven’t done any dedicated exercise but I have kept more active. Wish me luck this weekend. I’ll stop by as I can…

Off to put on some make up and head to the airport!

I have also joined the new community so go check out my new page.   For now I am putting my comments on both until I can figure stuff out on the new community. 

Not a lot…BUT, I’ll take a small loss over a gain! I am slowly focusing again…counting points, drinking my water, balancing the food I eat more, etc. I was actually down more than today’s weigh in (221.4) but this weekend I had Mexican (and 2 beers) on Saturday night and Sunday night I had Puerto Rican.

Yesterday I was doing good but then when I was almost home I realized I didn’t have my house keys with me! I ended up going to a coffee shop close to home until my brother got home so that I could get in the house. Had a bagel and cream cheese at the coffee shop but then I killed it by having some of my brothers chips and guacamole from Chipotle that he had bought himself (note to self: no need having comfort food if you already ate!)

This week although may appear challenging, will be good. I will watch my portions and just move around as much as I can to get some activity in. (I brought my workout clothes with me to go to the gym after work…I haven’t done that in AGES!!!!!). I plan to exercise three days straight before the big weekend.

I start my time off tomorrow so that I can clean up the house for the visitors that arrive on Friday and we’ll also be doing sightseeing in the evening. Graudation is Saturday (with some sightseeing in the morning), Mother’s Day is Sunday, and Monday everyone is off.

Haven’t been able to be around to read posts and look at everyone’s new pages on Blog to Lose much but will after this busy week. Have a great day!

How do I know that? I forgot to set my alarm last night and I woke up on time and very well rested. I feel energized and confident that this will be a good week. I deserve it! The bus ride to work was different than those past (tired, sleepy)…I actually stayed awake the whole time and read quite a bit of the book I’ve been reading.

Have a great OP week, everyone. This week the family comes to celebrate my brother’s graduation! It will be a crazy eating week but I have many activities planned to keep us moving!!

Off to work. Will update you all later on how I did this weekend and today.

Just a food log from yesterday…  Stayed to work from home and didn’t go out at night so not a lot of activity.  Although I am still going over points and still having sweets I still feel like I am refocusing.  It has been ages since I’ve had salad and soup for lunch!

Keeping it short since it is late.  Today I had another good day of focused eating.  You will see some sweets BUT you will also see a lot of fruits and veggies and more water!

Today starts the May Exercise Challenge!  I have 400 minutes of activity to do this month along with abs/core/back strength training 3x week.  My goal is to accomplish that challenge. 

I committed with a friend to start the Couch-to-5k running plan in June so we have set June 3rd as our start date.  It’s a Tuesday, I know, but it lines up with our weekly weigh-ins.

Here is my food log…

Today another better day.  A few good things:

• Had plenty of points for dinner
• Drank 9 cups of water!
• Took my multi-vitamin
• Remembered to put on my pedometer (although it didn’t count well)
• Wrote down what I ate (although it was, again, at the end of the day on the way home from work)
• Was focused at work
• Finished a chapter of study I have been working through for 3 days and completed another smaller chapter.  Progress…
• I am sticking to blogging…
• I counted and only ate the 20 pretzels that the bag said was the serving size!

 Not so good…

• Didn’t start drinking water until around 2pm
• HAD TO HAVE something sweet for dinner
• Could have had a healthier dinner

Thought you ladies would appreciate this.  I got it from a co-worker today.   

To Be 6 Again…

A man was sitting on the edge of the bed, observing his wife, looking at herself in the mirror. Since her birthday was not far off he asked what she’d like to have for her Birthday. ‘I’d like to be six again’, she replied, still looking in the mirror.

Not a good weigh-in but it is something I expected based on the week I have had. I am proud that I am owning this. I know that some of the things contributing to the gain is definitely the food I have had and also the lack of WATER! Today I only had 6 cups when my usual is around 10-12 cups. I’ll keep working at it…but at least today I made a greater effort to drink up. It’s bad when your pee is back to being yellow vs. clear. I know, TMI.

Thanks to everyone that posted comments. This is a journey for me but as a Proud Arian it is hard to admit when you don’t do well. We are the first sign in the zodiac and sometimes can be a bit too proud to admit fault.

I am going to take it a day at a time. Thursday starts the May Exercise Challenge and I plan to use that as inspiration. I will have family in town from May 8 - 12 but I plan to get lots of steps on the pedometer in since we’ll be sightseeing.

I did log my points for today. I did go over since I am not 100% OP yet but I tracked and that is a step in the right direction, right?

Last night I took 2 Advil to relax and prayed to God that he give me the strength to wake up today with inspiration and determination to get out of this rut. He listened and granted me a day that was more positive than in days past. I even started taking my multi-vitamin again!!!  Thank you, God.

I’ll be back to post my food log tomorrow since one of my other goals is to get to bed at a decent time to start my day fresh.

Morning Weigh-In: 221.8 — Steps: forgot to wear
Daily Points Target					28
Flex Points:
Waters √     Dairy √   F&V √   Oils √   Vit √
Activity				Points	Points/week
none				-	-

For real, ladies.  I know there are ups and downs on this journey but I feel like I have lost my drive.  I try to be positive but UGH, I am so frustrated with myself. 

Today I got an email from the Office Admin saying there were treats in the coffee station.  What did I do?  Rush to the coffee station and grab half a pastry.  For lunch the office had a Cinco de Mayo celebration where they served free lunch–tacos, chips, salsa, and soft drinks.  What did I do?  Didn’t eat the sandwich I packed but went to the free lunch and had 2 tacos, chips, salsa, and a Diet Pepsi.  Then I made myself believe that they didn’t give us dessert and I just NEEDED something. UGH!

For dinner I had put beef brisket to cook overnight so that was ready when I got home.  I heated some green beans and corn as side items for dinner.  But then what did I do?  I had some coffee with three mini chocolate cupcakes with frosting and three strawberries. 

Ever since Christmas and my stress kicked it up a notch and I got sick this month I just have not been the same.  I want to get back into working out in the mornings.  But now my excuse is that my lungs still can’t handle it.  I start coughing up a storm when I get winded just walking a little bit. 

I know that I have to be positive and that we all have our ups and downs but I hate to admit that I have been on a bad streak for some time now.  Many have set new years resolutions and been quite successful and here I am still stuck around my 10%. 

Today I have just been blah, tired, hungry, and all that makes me make really bad decisions with my eating.  I have been disappointed getting on the scale and seeing the scale creep up 1/2 a pound or more a day.  I’m on a vicious bad cycle and need to figure out how to find the flaw on that circle and GET OUT!

Bare with me ladies.  I have the inspiration in me to get out of this.  I JUST HAVE TO LOOK REALLY REALLY DEEPLY INSIDE.  God, I ask for your guidance to get me through this.