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Well I made it Friday and I have to say it feels good to be coming up on the weekend.  I’ve had a very busy 3 days at work and my house is a total dumping ground.  So this weekend is going to be spent cleaning up the house and putting the Christmas gifts and the tree away.  I’ve been doing really good on program these past two days, feels great to be back in control and counting.  The weight is coming off slowly and I want to give myself a little kick start to help it come off a little faster.  Any suggestions on how do this?  I could use all the feed back that I can get. 

I was talking to my mother-in-law today, who by the way never calls me always e-mails me.  Anyway I called her because I’m trying to make an effort to get to know her better and improve the relationship that we have.  Any-who I asked to see if she wanted to go to the mall on Monday because I have that day off from work and shes not working right now.  Well we got to talking and she told me that her and my father-in-law are thinking about starting Nutrisystem, she had done it after she had Austin to lose the baby weight and I guess it worked because she is thinking about doing it again.  So me being the noise person that I am got on the web and started researching this.  Well let me tell ya, I don’t have that kinda of money to be buying all that food.  Besides that you don’t get any joy out of eating it, I’m always so excited to try a new recipe or bake something new.  I don’t know how people can eat prepackaged food for 3 meals a day 7 days a week 365 days a year.  I did also notice that people who are doing are losing weight faster then I am and it makes me wonder if I should I give in and try it?  But on the other hand what happens when you go out to eat, how do you know what you can have?  What happens when you get you sick of eating like that?  I could see myself maybe being able to do it for a month and then I think I would just binge on real food.  Sorry if this doesn’t make much sense to you, I’m just trying to work this all out in my head and find the plan thats best for me.  Plus I think alot of this has to do with the fact that I have to huge complex when it comes to my mother in law.  I feel inferior to her and there isn’t a reason that I should, like being skinnier then her is going to solve the problem.  Plus when you go off a plan like your more likely to gain weight back, but you never really go off of weight watchers because its a lifestyle change not a diet.  I don’t know what to do someone please tell me what I’m doing is good for me, its working for me, and I’m going to be fine. 

I really think I need to seek professional help for my issues with that women.  Don’t get me wrong its not that I don’t like her because I do.  Its this feeling like I have to be like her for my husband to like me.  I know I’m crazy, my husband tells me all the time when I start to talk about this.  Thanks for reading the crazy rant of Sabrina today!! 

I love you all

Went alot better then I thought it was going to.  I stayed the same, witch is a miracle considering I ate Christmas cookies like I was never going to see them again.  So this week its back to counting and writing everything down, because News Years wont be any different then any other day.  I’m staying home on New Years eve and then News day lunch at moms dinner at Grand-pops and I’ll just have to count and thats that.  I want to ring in the New Year with a weight loss.  December has been a really good month for me, I was going over my progress charts last night from the past year and December has been the only month that I didn’t slip up and gain weight.  Granted I stayed the same two weeks in a row, but thats better then a gain.  I really think that blogging has played a big role in keeping me motivated this past month. 

I have the feeling that 2008 is going to be a really good year for me.  Weight loss wise, work wise, life wise and maybe even baby wise, who knows!  I’m just really looking forward to the new year. 

This Christmas was great.  My hubby did a wonderful job picking stuff out for me.  He got me a nice bike so that we can go riding together this spring, witch is great because I want to be more active this coming year.  He got me some movies and an ipod with a arm band so I can wear it while I work out and kitchen stuff.  Over all it was a great Christmas I had a lot fun eating myself to death.  Yes I did really on weight watchers this past week, I didn’t count a single point nor do I feel bad about it.  Last I spent so much time thinking about what I was going to let myself eat and I still did bad, so this year I put no stipulations on what I could everything on moderation and the scale was only up one pound this morning at home.  Tonight is the official weigh in at the meeting and I always weight more at night bit I’m not to worried about it.  I really enjoyed myself and took so many pictures I might post some, I love to share pictures of my family. 

hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!!!!!

This will most likely be my last post until after Christmas.  Tonight is my holiday party for work and I’m going to do fine.  I pick anything I want off the menu so that shouldn’t't be to hard for me.  Then tomorrow I have an appointment at the back, then its off the pick up the parent albums for my mother and law and my mother, plus the picture for my grandmother.  Those parent albums were expensive.  I spent a good part of my Christmas budget on them.  But I know its something that they both will enjoy.  Then on Sunday its Christmas eve for my dads side of the family, good thing about that it we aren’t having a big meal just some pickier foods and I handle that well, shrimp and veggies no problem.  Then there is Christmas eve for real with my In laws I don’t know what they have planed and when I called and asked them last night they didn’t know what they were having or what they wanted me to bring.  Its hard to plan my day eating wise when I get answers like that.  But I’ll have to power through somehow.  Then there is Christmas day at my moms, finally a place where I know there will be good healthy choices.  I’m thinking that I’m going to do really good over the holiday season. 

One thing that kinda bums me out is the goal I set for myself for January 1st doesn’t look like I’m going to make it there in time.  And despite that I still feel really good about WW in the fact that so far this month I haven’t gained anything, thats a first since starting a year ago.  I hope I can keep it up.

was last night and I can’t believe that I lost a pound.  I totally didn’t think that was going to happen.  I didn’t make the best food choices over the weekend, but I guess writing everything down really does work.  I still havn’t made a progress on working out.  I even went to bed early last night thinking I was going to get up and do a video….guess what I didn’t and I still feel like I don’t sleep last night. 

Tonight is going busy night for me and probably a late one to.  I have to get home, make dinner, help the husband paint the bedroom, bake cookies and do laundry.  AWWW sometimes I really hate the holiday season, my schedule is so out of sorts.  I did however make to time to go to my weekly meeting and I’m really happy that I did that.  Thats my time for me and I enjoy going to them. 

Another thing I did today that I want to tell you all about is this web site that I found in the news section that Roni has going for us.  The women who run’s this sight is Suzette and you can go on there an read why other people find weight loss blogging so helpful.  I noticed that a few other weight watchen community members were on there as well as Roni.  I hope you all check it, the link to the sight is under my blogroll labeled as suzette.

I was on a roll, I was doing so good and since last Wednesday I can’t seem to pull it together. I don’t know if its because the holidays are coming up so fast, and it seems like I never get anything done or what.  All I know is I feel like I have no control over my life right now and that means no control over my eating.  I have to get back to place in my life were I was in may.  The wedding was planed, I finished college, the house was coming along everything was under control.  Now everything is out of control, the house is a mess right now.  The 1 year project of remolding the bedroom is coming to an end and I’m really happy about that.  Only now I have one more thing to do, paint it!! witch is a strain on my time that I already don’t have.  Then there is the never ending task of Christmas shopping, family get together, work parties and of course baking!  Only this year instead of baking cookies for me, I’m baking cookies for my puppy and my mother-in-laws adorable britney spaniel Meeka.  This way I get to do something I love, but don’t gain any weight from it.  Plus its a healthy treat for my Lucian. 

I’m hoping that after the Hoilday’s I’ll be able to spend more time on myself.  I did do something for myself the other day, I joined a gym!! Yeah me miss I’ll do anything to keep from working out and breaking a sweat!  I don’t know if I talked about how much I hate working out on here before but something changed.  I was looking through the magazine that my mom gets for women over 40 years old and they had women in there 40’s 50’s and 60’s in underwear and I was like. OMG that 60 year old women has a way better body then me!  I couldn’t't believe it here I am at 23 I’m like 60lbs over weight and if I look half as good as that women does at 60 I’ll thank my lucky stars.  Then I started to read on about this women and it turns out that she is an avid gym goer.  A healthy life style is what is going to keep you looking young.  So I decided that I would give it go, I talked my husband and my mother in to joining with me.  I’ll keep you up to date on how the gym is going for me. 

Now that I’ve talked you ear off I need to get my work done. 

Lets just say thats this weekend was less then spectacular for me.  It started on saturday morning started out just fine, then we went for lunch and I did okay but then when I got home the s**t hit the fan if you know what I mean.  I didn’t sit down to eat dinner on saturday because I was painting my bedroom and that was not good because then by the time I was hungry it was ten at night and instead of having cereal or something light, the mac and cheese was calling my name and on top of eating it I ate a cup and a half of it. 

Sunday started okay as well and then I just couldn’t stop eating, plus my mom had me over for dinner and of course I forget how to control myself when I eat with people other then my husband.  SO today I’m trying to recover from a weekend of eating.  I’ve done well all day so far. 

Till next time…….

It’s Friday my favorite day of the week.  The one day of the week that I don’t cook, clean, do dishes, nothing.  I get to come home from work to a showered husband (he is dirty after work) who is ready to walk out the door and go out for dinner.  But today will not be like that, I was a mess yesterday.  I could not get myself to do anything so I didn’t cook, I didn’t clean and I sure as hell didn’t do the dishes (they seem never ending at my house).  So I will go home and make believe that it is Thursday night.  I don’t mind the cooking, in fact I love to cook.  Its all the other house work that I can’t stand doing.  Thinking about makes me want to think of ways to get out of it.  But I can’t because if I don’t do then who will.  The husband is really good about doing stuff around the house I have to say that.  He helps alot, but with him going to school two nights a week that leaves me with alittle more to do.  Plus we are remolding so he is doing at of that work at night and on the weekends.  All in all I have a really nice life, with a great husband, a cute puppy and a good job.  I can honestly say that I’m happy well mostly happy.  I’m happy with everything but myself, I don’t know how I let myself get so out of control.  I wish taking control and losing the weight was as easy as putting it on.  I have to say I do love a challenge and lose these 80 plus pounds is proving to be a very hard one.

I will win this war, true battles have been lost on the weight loss front but I will come out on top.  I’m doing really well this month, the last two weeks my goal has been to write everything down and I have, this week I’m tyring not to eat any flex points so far so good but its only the second day.  I think if I make it through the weekend I should be okay. 

Well thats it for now….I’m off to go and journal my lunch!

I need somebody, HELP! not just anybody, HELP! you know I need somebody.  HELP!!!!!!

You this song pops into my head every night when I’m trying to decide what to bring for lunch.  See lunch is my hardest part of the day.  What I have been eating this week is 2 slices of light bread with mustard 1oz of cheese, 2oz of turkey lunch meat.  A hand full of baby spinach and sliced tomato.  For a side I bring my 2pts of chips, 3 pickle spears and 1/2 a cucumber sliced.  This is alot of food…..so why don’t I feel full after eating it?  Someone told me that it could be the diet soda that I have everyday at lunch, the sugar taste makes you more hungry.  Is this true? 

I’m stuck at 160lbs and I don’t know what to do anymore.  One half of me wants to say screw it your not getting anywhere and the other half keeps saying 25lbs off in a year is better then 25lbs on in a year.  And that’s why I’m still doing this.  If I stop I know I’ll gain all plus some.  I just wish I could control my hunger.  If you have any ideas please let me know. 

 Thanks for listening….sorry this isn’t a happy post!

And I did okay, I stayed the same better then a gain but I feel like I did better then that.  Well I think this week is the week that I’m going to start working out again.  I have a video that I like to do.  Anyway with Christmas season in full swing I wanted to send my cards out on Monday.  So I went to the store and I got reindeer antlers for then dog.  I put them on him and try to take his picture in front of the tree. This did not go well, maybe I’ll be able to crop the picture to make it look better.  Well I have to get going, house work and such.

One hell of week for me.  With the saturday night sunday morning Denny’s fiasco behind me and weight in tomorow night I’m feeling really good about how I did on plan this week.  I can’t tell you enough how having this blog and making a commitment to blog everyday or at least to try to blog everyday has helped me.  I’ve been on WW a long time and have gotten no where…okay I got somewhere just not to where I want to be.  Something changed when I started this, not only did I start bloging but I started writing my points down everyday.  Thats something that I had not done in a very long time.  So this post is just to say thanks for listening and encourging me to keep going.

I’ve already been thinking about me New Year’s Resolition.  This year I want to make a effert to go to the gym.  I need to be more physical and maybe the weight would come off alittle faster then it is now.  So to get everyone in the mood I’m posting on of my favorite work out songs:

Lets just say that this weekend did not go as well as I had planed.  Lets go through this step by step.  Friday I had a really good day on plan, I eat only what I packed and 1oz of nuts that came in a gift basket at work.  I know your thinking how do you know it was only an once.  I use the postage scale to weigh my food when no one is looking.  Anyway I came home from work and cooked salmon with whole wheat pasta and peas.  It was very good tasting and very good for you.  Saturday started like always, I had my one point English muffin with 1oz cheese and tomato.  Then my picked me up and we went to Dunkin Dounts for coffee, everything was good until I decide that because I didn’t have that many points at breakfast I could eat a donut and I did.  Then I took my grandmother (she doesn’t drive) to the bank and out to lunch.  Again we went to Applebee’s and I could have a low point good for you lunch but I didn’t I had boneless wings.  Then for dinner I ate to pieces of left over pizza in car on the way to the cake concert.  Not the best choices a person could make. 

So we went to this concert out in New Jersey about 2hrs from where we live in PA.  Anyway we saw some people we know there and they asked us if we wanted to go to Denny’s after the concert, so we did.  Keep in mind that is was 1:00 in the morning, I tried to make a healthy choice and I thought I did pretty good.  I got the turkey club with no bacon and mayo.  I took out 1 pieces of bread and then I look the points up when I got home.  That’s right I journal my points when I got home at 3:30am.  Anyway 15 points I use most of my daily points before the day had even started.  So that’s the story of my Fiasco.  Today I’m just trying to recover from yesterday. 

For those of you who are reading this and have no clue who cake is here is a music video that they did.  This is one of my favorite songs that they do.  Its called Short Skirt/Long Jacket

Okay well so I have 6hrs before my weekend a start.  To recap my day yesterday I started my day with on of my favorite drinks every.  A not latte light from dunkin donuts.  Its low in points and high in caffeine and I just needed that hit of something yesterday morning.  Then for lunch I had a a sandwich, mini bite chips and pickles.  Did I tell ya’ll how much I love pickles?  Anyway then the husband came to pick me up from work and hour early.  I car pool to work with my mom so he came and got me and went to pick pant out from the bedroom.  I can’t believe that after a year my new bedroom is almost done.  So after we picked that out we went to local farm market and I got lots of good stuff, fresh meat, fresh veggies and fruit.  The produce and the meat looked so much better then the stuff at my local Giant.  Anyway the husband was like since we are over here lets hit the chinese buffet.  And so we did and I did great, I had everything that I like but only one piece of everything and you know what I was actually full when I got done eating.  So all in all I had a good day all the way around yesterday.

Today however has not been that great to me.  I remembered that my college loan payments we going to be, so I called the consolidation company today to ask where my bill is since I havn’t received one.  The thing never went through…..here I am thinking that its all done.  You think they would call a person and say hey look this isn’t going through.  You know I don’t want to make late payments and all that.  Okay enough ranting this page is not for ranting about money its about weight loss.

I almost forgot to tell you guys, last night I put together a book of all my WW stuff.  I journal online so I printed all the journals from last week and put them in this book.  I’m going to be doing this from now until I hit my weight goal.  I think that this is going to make it easy for me reflect on what I did that work and what didn’t work.  Also I’ve included pictures of me at me starting weight and pictures of me now that I lost 20lbs.  Well I’ve lost 25lb but I plan on taking pictures with every ten pounds that I lose. 

Now thats I’ve talked you ear off its time for me to get back to work.  I’m going to be posting new pictures soon.

I did okay, I’m down 2lbs not bad.  My scale said I was down 4lbs but when I weighed myself it was first thing in the morning and I nude, but I can’t understand is that two months ago my scale and the meeting scale were the same, now its a two pound difference.  On the up side I feel really good right now, I told myself that I was going to journal, everything even if I went over my daily points and my 35 points, at least I put it down.  I still had points left at the end of week.  So this week my goal is to journal, and eat more fruit and veggies.  I have about 55 more pounds to lose before I hit and I want to be at my weight goal my first wedding anniversary.  I’m also really happy because I rediscovered pickles…..I forgot how much I love them.  Such a good no point snack.  Well that’s all for me right now……I have to get back to work. 

Today I had a really good day all the way around.  I was busy at work so I didn’t have time to think about eating, I came home and made pasta and blueberry muffins.  Tomorrow’s breakfast is going to be so good, I love blueberry muffins and I was so happy to find it.   Tomorrow’s weight in should be a good one for me, I did really good this week, now I only hope that I can keep up the god work two weeks in a row.  I always seem to lose focus after a week.

And I hate Mondays, I’m always so tired from all the stuff that I do on Sunday’s.  This Sunday was a busy one for me.  Anyway I’ve been really good on plan lately and I think that I’m going have a good weigh in.  I made my husband zucchini bread……not low fat at all.  But that’s okay because I wont eat it.  I hope it comes all right it was my first time making it.  Also I made cheesy chicken dinner…..inspired by cheese burger macaroni.  Other then that I havn’t been doing much.  Still tyring to motivate myself to work out.  Until tomorrow…..