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So far this week I’m doing really well with my points, it feels good to be back in control.  But I can you this, its Friday and my body wants to eat, it wants to eat because I’m so use to over eating on the weekends.  I have to be good, and count my points because in the long run that’s what is going to back me happy.  Last night I made baked fish with mixed veggies and mac and cheese.  Only I make mine with 1/4 cup 1% milk and 1/2 and table spoon of light butter.  Cuts the points way down.  I still only eat a half a cup.  I have to be really careful when I eat stuff like that, I tend to want to eat the whole box.  I’m not sure if that’s out of habit or what. 

And let it be said that I did less then great.  In fact I gain 2.4lbs over the past two weeks.  But the important thing is that I’m not going to let it get me down, I’ve been counting my points eating my fruit and veggies and thinking of new was to cook them.  Last night I made some really tomato sauce with garlic, stewed tomatoes and fresh spinach, it cam out really good.  I put that over cheese and spinach filled ravioli.  My husband loved it, but then again he loves anything that I cook.  I’m so lucky that he like a wide verity of food and doesn’t mind veggies, it make being on WW that much easier.  So then why am I gaining weight, candy!  I’ve been eating candy and for some reason I can’t stop, but I’m making myself do it because “Nothing taste as good as thin feels” I’m always reminding myself of that.  I made a sing with that saying on it and posted it to my fridge as a little reminder of what I’m trying to do. 

since I posted anything on here.  Tell you the truth I haven’t counted a single point in like 3 weeks.  I can’t seem to focus on anything but the fat that my jeans are not fitting.  Now today I made a promise to myself to focus on counting and getting in my healthy guidelines.  I really think my problem and unwillingness to focus stems from lack of sleep.  I’ve been sleeping great and I think when your tired all the time you want to eat, your body needs the energy or something.  When I start to feel like I’m slipping I often visit sights like ronis sight and there is another one I really like her name is julie and she has been very successful on WW and I think to myself I want to be that to someone.  So I have to keep pushing myself to that point and i’ll get there. 

Well I think thats all for me today, I have like a million and one things to do before I leave work. 

I can’t believe that the weekend came and went that fast.  DF’s  birthday was Saturday and it was the first time I had a party that is parents came to.  I wanted to make really special for him and I think I did.  I don’t know if any of you were like this, but I get really nerves around my mother in law.  I don’t know why, I’m not a shy person, I’ve known her for 2 years now and I just can’t seem to get comfortable around her.  I hope this doesn’t last forever. Anyway Sunday was a day of shopping for new sweaters because all the ones from last year are to big.  Yay for that, bad for the wallet.  Monday I was so busy at work and then when I got home I had to clean the house.  And today I didn’t really do much, I’ve been really good point wise and I think I’m going to do really well tomorrow at weigh in.

So yesterday was a disaster eating wise.  But I’m back on today and I journal everything I ate yesterday, so at the very least I did do that.  I’m feeling much better today, knowing now that my cousin is going to get treatment.  Anyway I don’t want to spend to much time worrying over something that I have not part in, I’m going to pray for him and that’s about all I can do at this point.  I don’t want you to think that I am cold hearted, moving on from this so quickly.  I’m not at all over it, but for my own health I can not dell on it.  I’m prone to depression and over the years I have learned to tell when I’m headed that way.  This is something that is likely to trigger that for me, so for I have to keep it in the back of mind.  So with that on to happier thoughts……

Today I feel good about the way I look.  I had bought this white long tee awhile back because I liked that it can down over my butt.  So I have one with a blue shorter tee over top, nice jeans and some heals.  I look kinda thin today and I’m really happy about that.  I also bought a medium sweater last night and was blown away when the large was to large.  I haven’t warn a medium since like high school.  Things are going go in the weight department, I’ve tracking and drinking my water and eating all my fruits and veggies.  I’ve been sleeping better to.  For like a month I couldn’t't sleep and over that month I didn’t lose any weight and I really think a lot of it was because I was tired all the time. 

Also I’ve been listening to the band “the academy is” they are great.  The lead singer is suck a pretty boy, I love his voice and the music is very up beat.  I clean the house to the CD all the time.  Take a look this is my favorite song.

Well today I got some really bad news.  It all started last year when I heard a rumor around town that my baby cousin was on drugs.  I denied it up and down, how could that be true?, he would never do something like that?  Well it all came out today he really is on drugs and only after 3 days of rehab he singed himself out and is using again.  I can’t believe that he is doing this…..it just can’t be real.  I’m very upset by this, he is like my baby brother and so I’ve had the urge to eat and eat and eat.  So far I’ve been doing okay nothing to bad.  I’m sorry for such a sad post today, but I had tell you guys. 

 That is thy question?  I think that I’m going to TAG!!!

 So I was tagged by Bad Ass Fat Ass and this is my attempt at tyring to play along.  Please keep in mind that I’m new at this whole blogging thing and don’t have a clue how to tag people.  But I am tyring to learn. 

The Rules:

1-Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog
2-Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird
3-Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs
4- Let them know they are TAGGED by leaving a comment on their blog

About Me:

1. I just got married in August of this year, and I have the joy of being married to my best friend.
2. I want to have a baby, really really badly
3. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to eat french fries. 
4. I want to own a music store were I can flute lessons and sell flutes
5. When I reach my goal weight, I’m going to get cherry blossoms tattooed up my left side
6. I have two tattoos, one on my back and one on my wrist
7. I want to move to Seattle Washington

Who I tagged

1. Bad Ass Fat Ass

2. 30, Thin & Thriving

3. Adventures in becoming skinny

4. 30 pounds-gotta go

5. Kim’s Journey

6. Roni

7. Sarahs 40lb journey

Sorry the links to the other pages aren’t working.  I hope I tagged everyone correctly, let me know if it works

• I haven’t felt much like blogging lately.  I got back from Punkin Chunkin early Sunday morning and I’ve been doing wash and house work ever since.  The puppy has a bad rash again so I’ve spending lots of time with him trying to keep him from scratching it open.  It’s so bad and I’m worried that he’s sick, the vet said it was nothing but both his underarms and his belly are full of it.  It makes him stink to, because he scratches at it and then he gets scabs and they stink for some reason.  I give him a bath everyday and then he powder and brushed.  Anyway I haven’t been counting my points and I’ve been eating anything I want.  I’ve noticed that the more I eat the junk the more I want the junk and so it becomes harder to stop eating the junk.  I’ve been craving cream cheese so I got some low-fat cream cheese and Whole Wheat bagels at the store, I hope this does it for me.  So I needed some motivation and I remember something that my leader handed out to everyone.  It says: BE A 
• Come and stay for the meetings
• Learn to live the program
• Imagine your possibilities
• Move and be active
• Be positive,patient, and persistent
• Embrace healthy new habits
• Reach for your goals
• I have the little piece of paper that she gave me with the moto on it hanging on my computer here at work.  I also put on my fridge at home.  I like to hang little reminders of what I’m tyring to do around in place that I look at often, it helps me focus on what I really want…….to be healthy enough to one day have children.

• and I just can’t hide.  I’m about to lose control and I think I like it.  This is how I feel today, totally excited I keep singing that phrase over and over again in my head.  Why all the excitement you ask?  Tomorrow Austin and I are going to Punkin chunkin down in Delaware.  I cant wait to get going, I’ve been cooking snack foods and buying things that I can eat when I’m down.  Its like a big tail gating party with lots of beer.  Anyway last year I gained when I went down there, this year I’m determined to stay on goal.  I made cut out fall shaped cookies, low fat chocolate chip cookies, shrimp dip from a WW cook book, roll ups from the WW cook book and the pizza rolls that I’m coming up with.  Plus DH (dear husband) has off as well so we can sleep in and I make him a good b-fast.  He eats lean pockets for b-fast the days that he works and it drives me crazy.  Anyway I just get really excited when DH and I can spend more then 5 minutes together.  Plus we are puppy free for the weekend.  DH’s parents have agreed to watch the little for us.  I love my puppy but he drives me nuts some days. 
• This is Lucian my little baby.  He’s been really bad lately not sure why.  I think he’s tyring to tell me that he likes to walk in the morning and not at night.  And also I think he hates how busy we’ve become and I’m not home as much as I should be. 

Anyway I just had to share how excited I’m feeling….I really want my next weight in to go well so we’ll see !!