To Goal I Go…

I stayed up until 5am finishing my work sample and now it is 10:40 at night and I’m exhausted and MUST go to bed. Here’s what I ate today:

banana

oatmeal

bean burrito

6 in. subway sandwich (no cheese and LOTS of veggies)

Do I REALLY TRULY want to weight 146 pounds again? I mean if that is honestly my goal then I deserve a huge applause because I am well on my way. Remember what it felt like to weigh 131 and everything I put on felt loose and my stomach didn’t spew over the top of my pants when I sat down? Oh how I loved that feeling…I just felt so healthy. 

Maybe everytime I want to buy a candy bar or eat a Blizzard (nice, they are obviously so important to me that I automatically address them as a proper noun!) I should have that vision. I could first thing, “If I want to eat this maybe I should first try to pick a place on my body that I would be okay with gluing the fat to! Now I realize there has to be a balance to this mentality and I am not talking about the occasional reward or “boost” but I AM talking about going 20 over the flex points simply due to lack of will power.

 I know what you’re all thinking. Now she’s going to go off on this big pep rally about how she’s going to get on track and get to goal and then we won’t see her post for another 16 days! Sure she’s going to turn it around…sure she is. :( 

While your doubts and hesitations are all very understandable and even appropriate given my recent history, I assure you that this time will be different. Here is my new realistic and appropriate goal: Today is March 16th. I WILL weigh 125 by MAY 4th. I know that seems far away for some, and  if I get there sooner…WOO HOO, but at least I KNOW I can get there by May 4th. I can do this. I need to do this for me.  Now for the plan:

1. POST EVERY SINGLE DAY

2. Weigh-in day is Tuesday, therefore flex points start over on Wednesdays (lately I’ve had no official weigh-in day…therefore deemed it okay to simply not count flex points since it would just be too hard to figure out which day they started over on!)

3. Stay true to Core…it worked last time and it WILL work again.

4. Stop being lazy and be creative with Core…that way I won’t want to throw up everytime I think about eating sugar free pudding or another baby carrot.

5. Get to the gym. Wait…one more time: GET TO THE GYM. -the marathon training should help with this but regardless of that I need to get back into my active lifestyle.

6. PERSERVERE ….as is the key to ALL things that are worth waiting for hehe

 If you aren’t a fan or supporter today (or I’ve lost you due to my lack of commitment) be prepared for me to change your mind!  If anyone wants to jump on the “FRESH START” bandwagon with me feel free to leave a comment and we can all get to goal together!

Happy Sunday

Quick update and menu for the day before I leave for the school…

More to come… (I promise!)

Alright time to face reality. I haven’t posted in forever which I know is really bad. I honestly haven’t been out of control or really “off plan” I’ve just been completely overwhelmed and swamped with school work. (The end is almost here!!!) I told myself I would post my weight today although I really DO NOT want to. This morning’s reading was 135.4….I know I know I know. You are asking how in the world I am ever going to be at 125 by March 22??? The reality is that I probably won’t be but I am going to work very hard to be as close as possible by  the goal date. I’m sorry Laura I am frustrated with myself for gaining back about 4 pounds but instead of beating myself up over it I just need to do something about it. I really want to see the scale say 125!!! …I can’t wait….and it WILL come! Here is my food journal thus far (and yes, I will be making it to the gym today…actually I think I’ll run outside.)

 Oh…that reminds me, I stupidly agreed to run another maration this August with a friend of mine from the elementary school. The date of the run is August 10th and I am going to officially start training in mid-April. The training process should be another fun thing to blog so we shall see how all that goes!

I’m just quickly posting this morning for a little accountablity. I was out of town at my parents all weekend and I ate really well Thursday and Friday but Saturday and Sunday were a VERY different story. 19 days until goal date and I have a lot of work to do. Back to the gym today for me. I’ll post more later this evening…have a great day!

Feels good to be back at this consistently again. I’m exhausted and really need to go to sleep so here is a quick food journal from today. I didn’t make it to the gym after school today …but I will definitely be getting a workout in tomorrow. Here’s the journal (try to ignore the ice cream)

First of all, my goal is 125 by March 22nd…it’s going to be tough but I have to do the best I can. I had the idea that everyday this week I was going to use only one flex point each day which was to be spent on a chocolate VitaMuffin. Today started so well and then I went over and said goodbye to the twins that I have nannied for since they were 5 months old (they’re moving) and they had PIZZA for dinner. Surprisingly I survived fairly well and only had 2 pieces of veggie pizza. -oh, and I also did an hour of cycling today at the gym! WOO-HOO! 

Here is what I ate today: (tomorrow I might be brave enough to post the results of the scale)

 Oatmeal

Vegetable soup

carrots

apple

2 pieces veggie pizza

 …and of course, 1 chocolate VitaMuffin

More to come tomorrow…. 

Well I am out of town babysitting all weekend and, while my eating hasn’t been TOO out of control, it has been FAR FAR FAR from Core. I have just been eating whatever the kids eat as well as been giving into EMOTIONAL eating. Bad. Bad. Bad. So far today all I’ve had is a bowl of cereal so I guess that’s good. I can still make today a good day…I don’t have to wait til tomorrow to start over. I want to be at goal by March 22nd (125 lbs.). That gives me a little under a month to whip myself back into shape. There is no scale where I am so there’s so no way for me to tell the damage done this far BUUUUUT, based on the way I feel, it can’t be good. More to come… TONIGHT…

This is a post from yesterday that I forgot to do last night. Overall it was a pretty good day and I even made it to the gym!  I weighed in at 136 (YIKES!) and I know I’m probably up but it’s also that wonderful time of the month this week so I’m hoping that has something to do with it.  Either way, it’s back to core I go…

P.S. I forgot to mention that last week I did meet my new workout goal which seems lame cause it’s only 3 days a week but hey…better than nothing!!!!

I’m going to make this quick cause it’s 9:49 and I’m tired and am just going to go to bed. I can’t remember the last time I went to bed this early. It’s going to feel great to get this much sleep…way better than my usual 5 or 5.5 hours. Today was an okay day. I ate fine until I went to dinner with a friend. I didn’t eat horrible but I felt disgusting afterward. I did make to the gym again today though.

 I told Danielle today that I have decided to tell myself I’m “training.” Normally when I’m training I NEVER slack off the workout schedule because I don’t even let NOT going be an option. That is what I’ve decided to do. I’ve decided it’s not an option to NOT make time for the gym. Two days down in a row! Yay!