To Goal I Go…

I have made myself a vow not to step on the scale in my bathroom until Tuesday morning. I am going to weigh in Tuesday night and with TOM scheduled to arrive tomorrow I’m sure it will be interesting. I feel HUGE so that doesn’t help much either. Today I was fairly busy and ate a quick bowl of cereal before church and then WENT RUNNING!!! (woo-hoo!…training to start marathon training…doesn’t make much sense does it:( ) and planned at the school until 4:00 when I ate a bean burrito. It is now 10:04 and I am trying the Kash Go Lean cereal that has 10 GRAMS OF FIBER and is actually pretty good (although my standards and expectations have definitely lowered). Tomorrow I think I will try it with bananas for an even better tasting breakfast. Okay well I’m exhausted so I will check in tomorrow…no, seriously…I WILL. Night! (Back to reality tomorrow…bye bye spring break )

First of all, here is what I ate today:

Ultra-healthy muffin 3 FP

Whole wheat pasta dish with chicken 2 FP

Banana

SF pudding

Chicken Noodle Soup

I need to get to the gym. Desperately. I’m supposed to officially start marathon training on April 21st and I’m in denial because I should be running at least 3 times a week right now. Hope all is well with everyone…

Well my first week back on track has been a little crazy with the blogging. I started off really well and now I’m out of town working over Spring Break where it is a little harder to stay on plan. Today I will stay on PLAN and I am going to the gym later this evening so that should be fun! The other day I weighed in at 134.5 and am planning on weighing at the WW meeting this Thursday evening. Well I am out the door again, just wanted to quickly post something first. Happy Tuesday to all!  …oh and by the way…if you haven’t checked out Danielle’s ADORABLE daughter you should make your way over to her blog

I have been neglecting my blog lately but THANKFULLY NOT because I’ve been off plan. I’ve actually been eating really really well but just been too busy and a little stressed to journal. I had what should my last interview at another elementary school this morning which has pretty much consumed my week up to this piont. Thankfully, the interview went well and I should hear later this evening.

 Okay now back to the important stuff :)  So far this week I’ve used 10 of my flex points (plus the 4 I just used on an ultra-healthy celebration muffin). Because of some special services at my church this week I was not able to weigh in, but will be sure to do it next Tuesday evening. This morning’s scale reading was 135.0 which I was actually really pleased to see. I am still hoping to reach my goal but I’m going to have to work really hard between now and then. Here is what I’ve eaten so far today:

I stayed up until 5am finishing my work sample and now it is 10:40 at night and I’m exhausted and MUST go to bed. Here’s what I ate today:

banana

oatmeal

bean burrito

6 in. subway sandwich (no cheese and LOTS of veggies)

Do I REALLY TRULY want to weight 146 pounds again? I mean if that is honestly my goal then I deserve a huge applause because I am well on my way. Remember what it felt like to weigh 131 and everything I put on felt loose and my stomach didn’t spew over the top of my pants when I sat down? Oh how I loved that feeling…I just felt so healthy. 

Maybe everytime I want to buy a candy bar or eat a Blizzard (nice, they are obviously so important to me that I automatically address them as a proper noun!) I should have that vision. I could first thing, “If I want to eat this maybe I should first try to pick a place on my body that I would be okay with gluing the fat to! Now I realize there has to be a balance to this mentality and I am not talking about the occasional reward or “boost” but I AM talking about going 20 over the flex points simply due to lack of will power.

 I know what you’re all thinking. Now she’s going to go off on this big pep rally about how she’s going to get on track and get to goal and then we won’t see her post for another 16 days! Sure she’s going to turn it around…sure she is. :( 

While your doubts and hesitations are all very understandable and even appropriate given my recent history, I assure you that this time will be different. Here is my new realistic and appropriate goal: Today is March 16th. I WILL weigh 125 by MAY 4th. I know that seems far away for some, and  if I get there sooner…WOO HOO, but at least I KNOW I can get there by May 4th. I can do this. I need to do this for me.  Now for the plan:

1. POST EVERY SINGLE DAY

2. Weigh-in day is Tuesday, therefore flex points start over on Wednesdays (lately I’ve had no official weigh-in day…therefore deemed it okay to simply not count flex points since it would just be too hard to figure out which day they started over on!)

3. Stay true to Core…it worked last time and it WILL work again.

4. Stop being lazy and be creative with Core…that way I won’t want to throw up everytime I think about eating sugar free pudding or another baby carrot.

5. Get to the gym. Wait…one more time: GET TO THE GYM. -the marathon training should help with this but regardless of that I need to get back into my active lifestyle.

6. PERSERVERE ….as is the key to ALL things that are worth waiting for hehe

 If you aren’t a fan or supporter today (or I’ve lost you due to my lack of commitment) be prepared for me to change your mind!  If anyone wants to jump on the “FRESH START” bandwagon with me feel free to leave a comment and we can all get to goal together!

Happy Sunday

Quick update and menu for the day before I leave for the school…

More to come… (I promise!)

Alright time to face reality. I haven’t posted in forever which I know is really bad. I honestly haven’t been out of control or really “off plan” I’ve just been completely overwhelmed and swamped with school work. (The end is almost here!!!) I told myself I would post my weight today although I really DO NOT want to. This morning’s reading was 135.4….I know I know I know. You are asking how in the world I am ever going to be at 125 by March 22??? The reality is that I probably won’t be but I am going to work very hard to be as close as possible by  the goal date. I’m sorry Laura I am frustrated with myself for gaining back about 4 pounds but instead of beating myself up over it I just need to do something about it. I really want to see the scale say 125!!! …I can’t wait….and it WILL come! Here is my food journal thus far (and yes, I will be making it to the gym today…actually I think I’ll run outside.)

 Oh…that reminds me, I stupidly agreed to run another maration this August with a friend of mine from the elementary school. The date of the run is August 10th and I am going to officially start training in mid-April. The training process should be another fun thing to blog so we shall see how all that goes!

I’m just quickly posting this morning for a little accountablity. I was out of town at my parents all weekend and I ate really well Thursday and Friday but Saturday and Sunday were a VERY different story. 19 days until goal date and I have a lot of work to do. Back to the gym today for me. I’ll post more later this evening…have a great day!