To Goal I Go…

So after my last post entitled, “trying to stay accountable,” I was feeling like I’d been failing MISERABELY.  I spent the end of last week and Saturday in Seattle and ate and ate and ate. Plus, it didn’t help that my grandma’s digital scale weighed me in at 139!! (In all honesty, it even went up to 139.5). OH MY GOSH…talk about depressed.  I was feeling so down and so mad at myself.  Then I spent yesterday at home, back to my normal lifestyle and my normal everything. I had a good day yesterday and got up early to go the gym before the big WW weigh in. When I stepped on the scale at WW it said 131.8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ULTIMATE LOW AND I MADE LIFETIME!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I’m so excited…and still in SHOCK! My original WW’s goal was 137 (so that I could stop paying) with my personal goal at 130. I’ve now decided to move my personal goal down to 125 and am excited that I will soon be entering into that weight range!!!!  I’m looking forward to the new year and keeping this new lifestyle change that I’ve adapted to over the past 3 months. It’s going to be a great 2008!  :)  Happy New Year to you all!

 P.S. I can’t believe I almost forgot…Danielle and I are running two 5ks, one tonight at midnight (ya, I forgot how FREEZING cold it’s going to be!) and one at 10am tomorrow morning!  I’m excited…it should be really fun!  I’m sure we’ll both keep you all posted about how it went!  Have a great day!

I am up at my grandma’s in the Seattle area and really really really trying to stay on plan so that I can have a decent weigh in this coming Tuesday.  Last week (as I’m sure many of you have admitted) was pretty horrible eating wise.  I tried to exercise a little every day, but on top of all the extra food and junk that I don’t normally eat, I got sick, TOM came, and well that pretty much sums up my blown up weight on the scale.  I am hoping that by this Tuesday things will sort of be back under control again.  Here is my food up to this point today.  I HAVE TO STAY ACCOUNTABLE.  I will exercise today (although it will be hard since my 2 month old twin cousins are spending the day with us at my grandma’s!!!) and I will stay on plan. I can do this.

This week (beginning last Friday) is always killer for me.  It usually starts out with birthday at my mom’s then birthday at my dad’s, then Christmas eve dinner, then Christmas dinner, then up to Seattle for more food and family!  How will I ever survive?!!?!??!?  So yesterday started out with my mom and my four sisters and I baking ALL day. I did a fairly good job of staying away from the treats in the beginning but then munched a little towards the end.  That would have all been fine EXCEPT last night I went to my dad’s to celebrate my birthday with that side of the family.  We had a really healthy dinner of turkey and broccoli, but then for dessert my grandma brought her famous chocolate cake which is TO DIE FOR–and there is NOTHING diet about it!!!.  I had one piece…and then I had a little more, and then I just had one more bite.  You get the point…it was bad.  BUT, I do only eat it once a year and I did enjoy every single bite!!!!  I’m not sure if that is a good enough excuse to justify how much I ate but believe me it was GOOD.  To counter everything that we munched on earlier, my sisters and I did go for a 30 min. power walk (I can never get them to run with me) so at least we got in a little exercise.  I am planning on weighing in tomorrow morning with the hopes of making my 132.something “WW official’”!!!! -although I’m pretty confident my weight will register in the 133-134s. Oh well…that’s what I wanted to maintain through Christmas then it is BACK ON TRACK and down to goal!

So here is what I ate yesterday.  I will post more later, and thanks again for all the sweet birthday comments!

***I wanted to make sure that I WAYYYYYY over-estimated my munching and the chocolate cake so I just made sure it used all my flex points just to be safe.  It’s just this little mind game I play with myself.  Now I know I have no flex points until tomorrow’s weigh-in.

So today is my birthday and my goal was to reach 130. The last time I weighed (Tuesday) the scale reported 132.8. Although I’m not at my goal yet, I am still pleased that I have broken through the 134.4 plateau! I’m trying to stay as close to OP as possible today. Tonight my mom is making an almost Core dinner and then I am trying that cake that the “other” Allison recommended on her blog. I hope it goes well…I’m excited to see their reactions!!! So here is the start of what I’ve eaten today…I will update more later… Have a great day!

Here is just a quick update of what I ate yesterday. I am at my parent’s and am trying to stay accountable so that I don’t regress into the black hole once again!  Here is the chart…

Yesterday was a pretty strange day.  I didn’t buy very many groceries this week because knowing that today I’m heading to my parents until Saturday.  That being said, I’m running out of food which made yesterday an odd eating day. 

I ran errands for most of the day and FINISHED my mom’s Christmas present (a scrapbook!!!! -hopefully she doesn’t read this!) I cannot wait to give it to her!  I’m so excited!  Then, yesterday night after church my sweet friend Danielle took my out to dinner (and dessert!) for my birthday!  It was a blast just to hang out and talk.  Before I forget…I also made it to the gym yesterday and did 30 min. on the elliptical. PLUS…and this is the great part…after I was done I weighed in at 132.8 on the gym scale!!!  YAY! So now I feel like my out-of-town weigh-on was a lot more valid! Okay have a wonderful and they’ll be more to come later.  Have a great day everyone!

Food	Core/Pts
Oatmeal	Core
banana	Core
No real lunch	Core
Gelato	Activity points
Omelette with veggies	Core
Half piece of pie	4 FP
Totals	Core + 4 FP
Fruits & Veggies	3/5
Healthy Oils
Protein	1/2
Dairy	2/2
Water	12/8
Daily Activity Log -  30 min. elliptica
31/35 Flex Points Left

Okay so I was just about to go to bed after scrapbooking for the last seven hours.  That sure sounds like a lot but it is pretty pathetic when I really only got 2 1/2 spreads done :(  ..oh well, they look GREAT!  (I sure wish my camera wouldn’t have gotten stolen so I could post pics!)  Anyway…I remembered I still needed to post for the day so here I am.  Today was WEIGH-IN DAY!  I was terrified due to my horrible week.  I didn’t actually weigh-in at a WW meeting because I was out of town but I did use a scale Danielle swear’s is accurate. Anyway…the good news is I weighed in at 132.6!!! WOW…I was shocked!  That is down 1.8lbs. from last week!  I was shocked…and still am (I’m not sure if I really believe it).  Okay I must go to bed, here is what I ate today (the quick version):

Raisin bran crunch

chicken, lettuce, and salsa on 0 point tortillas (lunch and dinner)

applesauce

popcorn

manderin

Okay GOODNIGHT!!!!

So you have to know that whenever I do not blog for a few days it almost always means I’m doing bad bad bad…or should I say, “making poor eating choices.”  OH MY GOSH…what is my problem?!?!?!?!  All weekend (well actually just Saturday and Sunday which is basically all weekend) I have had like munchie mania.  I usually have three healthy Core meals and then I just cannot resist wasting POINTS I DON’T EVEN HAVE ANYMORE on stupid snacky type things that I usually NEVER EVER eat.  Ugh.  Ugh. Ugh.  It’s so frustrating, but yet I am just doing it to myself.  I did such a good job working out and running a lot last week just to sabatoge all of that exercise and good start to the week.  I need to focus and just maintain maintain maintain if nothing else.  My weigh-in is tomorrow morning which I’m sure will be up up up but hopefully the damage is not detrimental.  I should actually be making lifetime this week which is exciting, although it kind of loses its steam when you are up in weight the week of making lifetime :(  Oh well I guess, I will just have to live with the poor choices I’ve made and GET BACK ON TRACK TODAY.  I’m going on a field trip with the 4th and 5th graders today and then will make it to the gym later this afternoon where I think I will run about 4o miles to make up for this weekend! :)  Well happy Monday to you all and here’s to getting back OP!

 P.S. Although I’m not entirely sure why, for some reason Danielle put a link to MY blog to explain the chocolate covered pretzel fiasco. :(  Without getting into too much detail let’s just say it was BAD. We went to the store and when they didn’t have the smaller “bag” of pretzels, we decided that the significantly larger “can” size would be appropriate.  Unfortunately I have to admit that by the time we were done, there were only 4 pretzels left in the can :(  The only positive thing that can be said from the whole event is that at one point we were considering buying TWO cans (because they were 2/$5…which is of course an INCREDIBLE deal…or so we thought at the time!) but then quickly changed are minds in the check-out aisle and put the second can back.  Hooray for a pinch of willpower!

 Just so that I can end this post on a positive note, last night was the peformance of the Christmas play that Danielle and I co-directed.  It turned out WONDERFUL and all the kids did an incredible job!  It was so nice to see the final show take place and see so many people reminded that the real meaning of Christmas is celebrating and honoring Jesus!

Well yesterday was a very strange day.  I started it off right by running 4 miles and eating oatmeal for breakfast.  Then (and to my embarressment) everything slid downhill very fast.  I just snacked on treats all afternoon and didn’t even really eat lunch.  Then, to finish off the day, I had a very light dinner at this Christmas party I went to and so the whole day was just weird.  I felt so gross all day :( 

In addition to that, I have been feeling sick for the last few days.  Starting yesterday I have been watching these kids I’ve nannied for for a long time, and last night the little boy and I were up almost all night because he was running a very high fever.  The original plan was to drop them off at preschool this morning and then hit the gym hard, but as it is now 12:30pm and I am still in my pajamas, it is obvious we have moved to plan B which involves staying home and being couch potatoes all day :( 

I will post today’s food a little bit later.  I have ZERO flex points left until weigh in day…which will either be next Monday or Tuesday.  More to come soon…

 Oh Oh Oh…I forgot to add that yesterday morning after running the gym scale said 133.o!  That is really exciting but I am also trying to remember that the gym scale is not the greatest, it was in the morning before eating anything, and after sweating a lot.  I guess we’ll see how weigh in goes next week.  I am still hoping to make it to the gym sometime today, and then I have a soccer game LATE tomorrow night so at least I know I’ll be exercising.

First of all I’m totally annoyed because I just finished this big long post when all of the text disappeared so I guess I will try this again.  Yay for surviving baking day!  As many of you have probably already read on Danielle’s blog, we did it!  We survived baking literally all day (10 HOURS!) and I am only counting 20 flex points for the day…just to make sure I’m EXTRA EXTRA safe.  20 may sound like a lot but just wait until Danielle uploads the photos of ALL THE TREATS we made…then you will know the severity and intensity of the danger we were in yesterday!

Another update: I actually did end up going back to WW yesterday and weighing in for the second time this week.  I was down .4 (before the baking of course!) so that made me break even last week.  Even though I still hadn’t lost anything I was encouraged to not have been up any. 

I also went to the gym yesterday.  As I was really in a time crunch I decided that I would hurry to the gym and run two really fast miles and then leave (hey, it’s better than nothing!).  So there I am on the treadmill, closing in on two miles when I see the parking enforcement officer inching closer and closer to my car that had a WAY over due meter.  Needless to say, I finished the end of my run by running out to my car to avoid a $15 parking ticket! -How’s that for a little workout excitement?!?!?!

 So I have been pondering this whole lose 4.4 pounds by my birthday (which I realize is not realistic at this point) and have been thinking that maybe it is better if I make my goal to maintain 133-134 until the end of December or after the holidays, and then finish off the last 3 pounds in January?????? I was thinking maybe that would help me take a little of this intense pressure off.  The lady at WW yesterday told me that these last few pounds are usually the hardest so we’ll see I guess.  I just don’t want to be discouraged for the next 3 weeks …but I guess I just have to remember that I will get there eventually.  Okay enough blabbing, here is my food chart from YESTERDAY and TODAY:

YESTERDAY:

Today’s food chart:

Food	Core/Pts
Oatmeal	Core
banana	Core
Chicken soup	Core
Pudding	Core
Apple	Core
Totals	Core
Fruits & Veggies	4/5
Healthy Oils
Protein	1/2
Dairy	2/2
Water	8/8
Daily Activity Log -  No gym -and I don’t feel very well so I don’t think I’ll go tonight…but I will be back tomorrow.
13/35 Flex Points Left