31 MORE Days!

Yes, the mountains! MOUNTAINS of laundry!!! Alright, so I’ve been busy cleaning & doing laundry & decided to sit down to take a break and write a bit- lo & behold my computer upstairs doesn’t have my login saved, I can’t remember my WP password & when I reset it- it never emails me to tell me what the temp password was reset to!! SO, I decided that I’m still going to write, but I’ll have to cut & paste this in for you guys later…. Anyway- by the time you read this, all of that will be irrelevant to you- SO on to more interesting things!

Such as… let’s see, how about BOOT CAMP?? As I’d mentioned earlier, BC is now going be be running 6 days a week. Dr. Drill is expanding his program to another local health club & is now running one session M,W, F & a second group on T, Th & Sat. He was very generous in offering FREE admission to the new venue to all vets at the original BC home base. I planned to go M-F, only skipping Saturday’s workout because the new club opens later & so that session won’t start until 7 am- which by the time I would get home it would be almost 9am & is just too late. So, I did go to BC this past week- made it Monday through Thursday.  Hurt my knee (again…) on Tuesday, overdid it on Wednesday & on Friday was just too exhausted to make it in b/c my munchkins kept me up most of the night.   So, I did 4 days of Boot Camp plus 2 nights of competitive volleyball.  I have to say though- I was EXHAUSTED the entire week. I could barely keep my eyes open some days & in general was a pretty awful wife/mom this week. No, I didn’t say I felt like I was- I WAS…. really…. bad.

I don’t know that I can blame it all on BC, I had a lot of other things going on too, but Jason really wants me to can the extra two days b/c I was just too burnt out to function & he blames the extra BC days. I think what I’m going to do is, to work really hard to catch up on all the things I let get ahead of me this week- such as laundry, cleaning, cooking, grocery shopping, errands, bill paying, kid time, hubby time, Borough minutes & most any other thing that I was responsible to do…. seriously. I told you- B-A-D!! (But, I bet you all feel better about your week right?) Glad I can help! Anyway, if I can catch up on those things and get back on track this week, then I’m going to talk to hubby again & see if he’ll let me try another 5 day week. I learned that I can’t go to bed at 12 or 1 am and still get up at 4:30 for BC EVERY day. I can do that for 3 days a week, but every day killed me. If I’m going to do the 5 day, I have to get in bed by 11:30- which I should probably do anyway.

In any case, I’m still loving BC- having a great time with my v-ball buddy Rigel & SO happy that’s she’s loving BC too!! Even though this is my third time through, I can tell that I’m STILL getting stronger. I can do/hold things longer, use heavier weights, have a TON more endurance than ever before & in general feel GREAT! Certain things I can even keep up with Dr. Drill on when he challenges me to push harder!! Randi (and a few others who’ve asked in the recent past- Amanda I *think*) I am working on getting some pics up showing off my BC muscles & will be looking for honest opinions!! The setback at this point is that I can’t seem to find my camera’s battery charger & of course, the battery is dead- so once I find that & charge it up, I’ll post some brave pics for ya’ll!

I also want to thank all of you who responded to my post about changing directions. I LOVE the support that you guys give & that you genuinely care about reading my ramblings. I honestly feel the same way about you guys! Please know that even if I’m not commenting, that I do check/read all of your blogs daily & that I love to keep up with you guys too- weight related or not! Hopefully (once I did out of my laundry/dish/dust mountains) I’ll have some more time to add some more comments!

I have a few other things to write about- nothing particularly exciting, but I think I’m going to need to save it for another time. My (clean) laundry is covering my bed & if I hope to sleep on a non-lumpy surface tonight, I need to go do some folding!! Real quick- WI on Friday was up 0.8, which I kind of expected. My eating wasn’t great & it’s been the pattern. But my weight is still lower than 2 weeks ago. Maybe that’s just the way it’s going to happen? Down, down, up, down, down, up- I guess as long as the ups don’t go beyond the downs, eventually I’ll get down where I think/thought I want to be. I’ll write more about that again too- I’m still not sure what I want to do. I’m happy, but stubborn… I think the pics & feedback from you guys will help, so I’m gonna go fold some laundry & search for my battery charger! Have a great night everyone!! TTYS!!

I swear I saw you at CVS last night! If it was, then I’m sorry I didn’t stop to (officially) introduce myself.   You’ll just have to forgive me for not feeling comfortable about walking up to men I don’t know when I’m out alone at night.  :D  Anyway, if it was you, you look great!  Glad to see that even if you’re not posting, you’re still keeping it together & OP.  Maybe it wasn’t you….  who knows! 

Does the silence from the rest of you mean that you think I’m a quitter???  Nice words don’t do anything for me if they aren’t truthful.  I want to know what you REALLY think…  so if that means posting something I may not want to hear, then post it.  I’m a big girl & unless you are intentionally trying to be hurtful or offensive, I can take it.  Trust me, I want to know what you really think….

Well…  what can I say, I’m getting tired of writing the same old, same old.  I lost this week, I gained this week, I lost this week, I gained this week.  I have been playing around with the same 2 or 3 lbs for 3 1/2 months!!!  To be honest, I haven’t counted points except a day or two in probably a month because I’m tired of doing it.  I’m also seriously lacking motivation because honestly, I’m at the point where I don’t really care what I weigh.  I like the way I look & I like the way I feel & so does my hubby.  I feel like I’m banging my head against the wall trying to get to “that magic number” that I picked 9 months ago.  I guess the only thing that would make me feel better about “calling it quits” would be to know that when people or even my dh say “you look so good” that they’re not really saying “you look so good compared to the fat slob you used to be”  or “for having 3 kids in 4 1/2 years”.  I want to look good PERIOD (milf!!!) and I’m just not sure that if looks wise, I’m where I want to be yet- clothed anyway.  Naked, I KNOW I’m not… but hey, that’s probably everyone, super models included, so I’m not going to worry about that as much!

I don’t know…  I guess what I’m thinking at this point is kind of along the lines of what Erin (Taking the Reins) did.  I’m going to stop worrying about points, cause well I already did!  But I’m going to stop beating myself up for not counting AND I’m going to continue to eat healthy & do my Boot Camp.  (Which btw, I’ll now be doing 5 days a week!!!  woo hoo!!!)  :D  In the past week or two I have gotten so many comments about how I look- no one believes me when I tell them that I haven’t lost any weight in 3 months.  I KNOW that BC is toning me up & replacing the fat with lean muscle- there isn’t any other explanation!  Even my clothes- they’re getting bigger & bigger even though my weight is the same.  I just need to get it through my head that just because I’m no longer officially aiming for 135, that doesn’t make me a quitter.  If I eventually get there- AWESOME!!  If not, I’ll be a lean, mean, muscle machine at 142 ish!

So, to that end, I’m going to be changing the direction of my blog a bit.  I’m going to continue with posting my weekly WI’s- I think that’s a huge key to catching an unhealthy trend early & turning it back the right direction.  I’ll also continue to blog about Boot Camp, but I want to start blogging more about life- just getting my thoughts out of my head out there.  I enjoy writing & have always expressed myself better on paper, so I think it will be good for me too!  So, anyway… that’s what I’m thinking.  As always… any insight or feedback is greatly appreciated!!!  :D  Have a great day!

Well, even though I’m happy that I lost 1.4 this week, I’m not going to get excited about it.  I’m not going to be happy with any more losses until I see that 3 in the middle!!  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not down on myself or giving up by any stretch!!  I have just been going up and down little bits at a time for the past 3 months, but haven’t really made any headway weight wise.  I am determined to get out of the 140’s & get down those last few stubborn pounds!!!  I am happy that the scale is moving in the right direction this week- just need to keep it that way now!!

Anyway… I am EXHAUSTED!!  Boot camp was really difficult for me today.  We were doing stations outside, which I can normally manage, but the air was so thick this morning.  It was humid & kinda misty- it just made it really hard for me to breathe (mild asthma).  I knew that I basically had two choices, to ease up a bit & go at a pace that I could breathe with or to push ahead & keep the lead in my group for 10 minutes before I’d be gasping for air & then having to almost stop completely.  It was frustrating to me to not push like I wanted to & to feel like I wasn’t working hard enough.  I do have to say though- I can tell a HUGE difference in my lungs since January.  I KNOW that I would never have been able to do what I did today back then breathing wise.   So even though my body was left wanting  more today, my lungs are being conditioned too & I guess they just need more time to catch up with my body.  At least they worked hard today!

Anyway…  lots to get done today as usual!  I promise to post more this week & I will catch up on my emails, comments & blog reading.  I swear I’m not ignoring you guys!!!  I love and appreciate each & every comment that you guys leave for me even if I don’t always get back to you!!   Have a great day &  weekend!!! 

So the first part…. Hungry, Hungry Hippo- THAT is me today!! I swear, by 9:30 I was looking for lunch & I just can’t seem to stop eating. Nothing horrible… just too much. I did earn 5 AP’s from BC this morning, so that’s good at least… but I think I’m already at my points limit for the day and it’s only 1:30. So much for not going over my flex points this week…. It’s not helping that I have a nasty cold. Speaking of… that’s one mistake I won’t make again- taking a nighttime cold medicine the night before BC- NOT good, let me tell you! I still can’t believe that I drove this morning- dumb, dumb, dumb! No need to lecture- it won’t happen again!! Besides the safety issue, I feel like I was a lousy leader to my squad this morning. I could barely keep myself going, let alone motivate my team. Sorry guys!!!

Anyway…. onto some fellow Boot Camp Babes!! My sister (Squad Leader of squad #3) & my volleyball buddy/new recruit Rigel are both bloggers & I wanted to pass on their links because I know that all of my wonderful readers will stop by & show some love (in the form of comments & encouraging words!!) to my girls!!! So, here they are!!

Rigel’s blog isn’t strictly about weight loss, but she has a lot of thought provoking posts & is always an interesting read!!

Joslyn’s blog is just starting up!  At this point it’s actually empty, but I’m going to talk her through learning Word Press so she can get going quickly.  Drop her a note anyway- I know she’ll appreciate it & I assure you, she WILL start posting soon!  (or else…. right chicky!?! ) 

Anyway… that’s all I’ve got for now.  I have quite a bit of laundry & cleaning to catch up on & I’m going to go look for a doctor willing to wire my mouth shut for the rest of the day!  (JUST KIDDING….)  Have a great day everyone- I’ll catch up with you all soon!!! 

Wow, yesterday was a long day! I guess I’ll just start from the beginning… woke up before 5 for Boot Camp- GREAT class!! This week is “Motivation Week” & they’re starting to push us harder. I don’t think I’ve left BC yet in the past week without being DRENCHED in sweat- I mean my clothes are completely wet & (multiple) drips of sweat are running off my legs, arms and face. Sorry that’s kind of gross, but it’s true! It’s been some HARD workouts lately & I LOVE IT!!! I’ve also been really proud of my squad! Almost everyone in my squad is a “newbie” & they are all “hard chargers” (as Drill would say!) I know that I could have never handled the classes these guys are pushing through back in January & I am so proud to be their squad leader! So, anyway, I’m getting off track- BC was hard yesterday- at the end Drill took us out to “Drill Hill” (just a slightly steep hill outside of the Y) & he had us do lunges up, then an exercise at the top, walk down, do frog hop up, exercise, walk down, etc. It was tiring, but good. At the very end, before we went in, he had us go to the really steep part of the hill and put our feet up on the hill & do a plank. I guess my feet were a little too high, because I got really dizzy & had to drop out & sit for a minute. I felt fine after a bit, ran in & finished up, but when I went to leave my vision started to get kind blurry (just a little) & my head started to hurt. I probably shouldn’t have been driving myself home at that point, but I made it. I got something to eat- cottage cheese & peaches- hoping it would kick in quickly & make me feel better, but it didn’t. I hopped in the shower quick, felt like I was going to fall over the entire time & got out as fast as I could to pretty much crawl into bed still in the towels. By then my head was throbbing, & light, noise or moving too much made it worse. Now I’ve never been diagnosed with migraines, but from what I’ve read about them, my symptoms fit. I haven’t had one in a really long time though. Well, my hubby was sweet & he got up with the kids & took them downstairs and let me sleep it off. I remember I had really weird dreams- someone was torturing me- had my head in some contraption… creepy… I woke up crying & of course my head hurt even worse then. I finally fell back asleep & this time when I woke up (around 11am!) my head was starting to feel better. Thankfully my hubby’s job is flexible so he was able to help me with the kids while I slept off my migraine. So pretty much after that, my plans to get a lot were a wash. I pretty much spent the day trying not to over do it so that it wouldn’t come back. By the late afternoon I was feeling mostly back to normal & we took the kids to the park, which was nice. I kept dinner simple and made some tacos- they were about 5 points each. I really wanted a third one, but I didn’t have any points left, so I behaved!

After dinner I spent some time playing with & reading to the kids to make up for abandoning them all morning & then I tucked them in before I ran out the door for my 8:00 volleyball game. By this time, I wasn’t having any dizziness or pain at all. I am so frustrated with my team! I’ll try to explain without boring you with the 5-1, 4-2, 6-2 volleyball stuff. If you play, you’ll understand. Basically, it’s a co-ed team. 4 guys 2 girls, no weird co-ed rules, but the girls pretty much set b/c it’s a higher net. So, we play a 4-2 (which SUCKS!!) We have awesome hitters, tons of potential, all young players (I’m the oldest at 28) but we’re losing to teams of old people!! The captain (the other girl) only wants to play a 4-2, basically IMO b/c she can’t set. All she ever does is bump set, and since she has very little control, just wants to keep it simple. That leaves me with no middle hitter & since the other teams at least play a 6-2, they have middles, which I get stuck attempting to block & they’re double blocking my hitters, which makes them less effective. ARRRGGHHH!! I’d prefer to play a 6-2 so that I could hit too, but I’d be willing to play a 5-1 and not hit at all, just so that we could get a better offense going. I know that my one hitter could do MAJOR damage running quicks out of the middle with only one blocker instead of getting shut down by the double block…. so frustrating!!! Sorry if I bored you- Jos, I know you understand! (And where is your blog btw??? Get it going Missy!!)

Anyway, we lost all 3 games, but I got in some more AP’s giving me a total of 11 for the day!!! I hit Target on the way home. I was very tempted to take out my frustration on a bag of Pepperidge Farms Double Chocolate Chunk cookies, but checked out the nutritional info and at 4 points per cookie, decided that I didn’t want to at 32 points on my day. Yes, I probably would have eaten them all…. I wouldn’t want my hubby to see any evidence left & I wouldn’t want to waste “good” food by throwing them away after one or two… so with the mood I had, I probably would have eaten 8 of them, but I didn’t! I also avoided the candy isle on the way out! I bought some Excederin migraine while I was there as well as some other exciting purchases (diapers & wipes- woo hoo!!) About 10 minutes after I got home, my vision started to get funny again like it had in the morning, so I took some of the meds I’d just bought. Luckily it kicked in just before it started to get worse & hubby & I watched Heroes & Journeyman (I LOVE dvr!!!) before hitting the sack. I did end up having a snack before bed, but nothing awful considering that I had 7 of 11 APs to eat. Anyway, I think this post is long enough already, so I’m not going to bother with posting my menu from yesterday. I will post today’s later tonight & hopefully no more migraines!!! ttyl!! Have a great OP day all!!!

But, still in points at least… Gonna be better tomorrow!!

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